If every shot is perfect, you’re doing it wrong.

I try to go through all of the photos from my shoots before I set up the viewing for clients and authors. But sometimes, “outtakes” sneak in there, and we all have a good laugh about how ridiculous a picture came out, or how cute it was, or how god awful the lighting was, etc. What’s my point?

NO PHOTOGRAPHER IS PERFECT ALL THE TIME.

Hell, most of us aren’t perfect.. ever really. There will always be photos that either make us cringe, or that we know we just can NOT show. There will always be things that happen during shoots, that will definitely be talked about during the next shoot. Like that one time I almost lit Shannon on fire.. (read: tea-lights are NOT steady on carpet), or that other time I didn’t realize I had the WRONG hand cuff key (thankfully, that was realized before we put them on..). So here are a few examples of how I am, most definitely, 1000%, NOT a perfect photographer, or even close really.

The most common thing my models are used to hearing out of my mouth? “Let me test my lighting”. Why? Because this:

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Like really? what IS that.. I should know better, right? Of course I do, but sometimes, I’ll be way too into the shoot, and we will go from inside to outside, or vice versa, and 10 pictures later, I’m like “NO! SHIT! I forgot to readjust my settings”. Why? Because I’m human.

Then there’s the “Let’s try this! It’ll be AWESOME”… except it’s not.. it’s terrible.. and we should have never done it.. but hey.. it was a good.. thought.. right?

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sorry for almost drowning you, Jamie.

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and sorry for almost sinking you in Mud, Ali.

Then there’s the focus problems.. not really problems? just the.. yeah okay.. i forgot to focus, things moved, and oops.

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because everyone loves a blurry mad hatter..

Of course no shoot of mine is complete without a puppybomb. All my models have had the pleasure of meeting my barking pack. And they just love the camera..

Meet Roxy, my first baby/assistant:

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Then there’s Zoey, who is pretty much petrified of life, but loved Trazia:

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And then there’s Sky.. the baby of the group, who just wants love.. from EVERYONE. ALL. THE. TIME.

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I should mention, that I have given these 3 a boost towards their modeling careers. Roxy is going on one book, and Sky and Zoey will be going on two each. Cutie girls <3

But hey.. we have fun.

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And at the end of the day.. a nap never hurts.

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Embrace Your Weird

#embraceyourweird

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It’s a topic that came up while I was posting new photo previews the other day. I was told that my style is a “little weird” the other day, and to be totally honest, I feel like that was the best compliment I’ve gotten in a long time. I’ve always felt a little bit different from the norm when it came to my photography, painting, drawing, etc. I always leaned towards the dark, towards the creepy, towards the abstract. Then I started book cover design, and tried to put myself into a box. I liked this box. It was fun. New models, couple shots, sexy shots. I’ve always liked boudoir, so it worked well for me. I’ve always found the human form beautiful, specifically the body of a woman, so these shots seemed right up my alley. And while they are fun, and I truly enjoy shooting them, I still missed my weird. So over the last year, I feel like I’ve been taking more chances when it came to book cover photography. I started shooting a little bit darker, and at the same time, started shooting a little bit brighter. Two total opposite ends of the spectrum, I’m aware. But it felt right. Over the last year I stepped out of my “this is what people want to see” box, and stepped into my “this is what I want to see” box, and I like this box a bit more than the original.

#embraceyourweird

So with that said, here is what I have learned about myself in the last year, most of which I have learned about myself in the last 4 months.

I like dark. I like creepy. I like controversial. I like things that are out of the norm.

I like blood. I like butterflies. I like feathers. I LOVE glitter.

I’m dark, but I’m light. I like pretty, but confused. I like dark red, but I also like light pink.

I’m still confused.

I feel like a contradiction of myself sometimes.

and that’s okay.

I’m still finding my style.

But I have a better idea of who I am as an artist.

I want to evolve.

I want to keep growing.

I’m doing whatever I can to learn more.

I want to learn. I miss learning. I miss breaking rules.

So I’m learning the right way to do something, and plan to break those rules.

I have a style. I like my style.

I like people. I’m bored of landscapes. I like nature. I like being indoors.

I’m not the family photographer that I once was.

These crazy ideas in my head finally have a place.

Not everyone will like what I do.

and that’s okay.

Something’s I try will absolutely suck.

and that’s okay too.

It’s all okay.

Because it’s art. And art is about expression. And this is me. And I like me.

I’m embracing my weird for the first time in a long time. I’m going to push myself harder, work more indepth, and that way when someone asks me “why? why do you do this?”, I have a real answer.

My point? #embraceYOURweird.

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