#embraceyourweird
It’s a topic that came up while I was posting new photo previews the other day. I was told that my style is a “little weird” the other day, and to be totally honest, I feel like that was the best compliment I’ve gotten in a long time. I’ve always felt a little bit different from the norm when it came to my photography, painting, drawing, etc. I always leaned towards the dark, towards the creepy, towards the abstract. Then I started book cover design, and tried to put myself into a box. I liked this box. It was fun. New models, couple shots, sexy shots. I’ve always liked boudoir, so it worked well for me. I’ve always found the human form beautiful, specifically the body of a woman, so these shots seemed right up my alley. And while they are fun, and I truly enjoy shooting them, I still missed my weird. So over the last year, I feel like I’ve been taking more chances when it came to book cover photography. I started shooting a little bit darker, and at the same time, started shooting a little bit brighter. Two total opposite ends of the spectrum, I’m aware. But it felt right. Over the last year I stepped out of my “this is what people want to see” box, and stepped into my “this is what I want to see” box, and I like this box a bit more than the original.
#embraceyourweird
So with that said, here is what I have learned about myself in the last year, most of which I have learned about myself in the last 4 months.
I like dark. I like creepy. I like controversial. I like things that are out of the norm.
I like blood. I like butterflies. I like feathers. I LOVE glitter.
I’m dark, but I’m light. I like pretty, but confused. I like dark red, but I also like light pink.
I’m still confused.
I feel like a contradiction of myself sometimes.
and that’s okay.
I’m still finding my style.
But I have a better idea of who I am as an artist.
I want to evolve.
I want to keep growing.
I’m doing whatever I can to learn more.
I want to learn. I miss learning. I miss breaking rules.
So I’m learning the right way to do something, and plan to break those rules.
I have a style. I like my style.
I like people. I’m bored of landscapes. I like nature. I like being indoors.
I’m not the family photographer that I once was.
These crazy ideas in my head finally have a place.
Not everyone will like what I do.
and that’s okay.
Something’s I try will absolutely suck.
and that’s okay too.
It’s all okay.
Because it’s art. And art is about expression. And this is me. And I like me.
I’m embracing my weird for the first time in a long time. I’m going to push myself harder, work more indepth, and that way when someone asks me “why? why do you do this?”, I have a real answer.
My point? #embraceYOURweird.
